After days of despair and sadness over losing you. I have been evaluating what went wrong in our relationship I am really sad to say that it is because your feelings for me waned over the years.Maybe I am too boring or something, maybe you just want to stay as good friends with me and nothing else. I know i said i will wait for you, but its been rather painful and you dont really know. I know we should keep our option open but from the way u were interacting with other male friends on face book still made me jealous and heartbroken. HAHA. u may say that u dont have to answer to me at all now, oh well. That is true.
There are times when I really want to run away like a loser and forget about you.
There are times when I want to stay and try to hold on to whatever is left of our relationship.
There are times i hope I am not just an obligation to you...
Yesterday you pushed me away for the first time in 2 years. You stayed firm. Are we really over? I really hope not. I am going to chase you back.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Day 1
Yesterday was the day we informally broke up. The pain in me was crazy. I wonder if we can still find the same feelings we had for each other 2 years ago if we managed to patch up. If on sunday, u decided that this is the end, can i really accept it?
Maybe I cannot. But I have to right. :( There are nothing much that I can do. Thats why i started this blog. I will pen down whatever miserable feelings that I will feel after you leave. when i managed to leave this blog, it meant that I have gotten over you totally. I wonder how long will i take to recover...
Everytime during tough times, your smiley and cute face will come to my mind and i told myself to push on. I know you had fun during ur camp, thats what u told ur friends, but the only regret is me smsing youand pestering you. It will not allow you to enjoy urself thoroughly. its kind of hurting because in the past you depended on my sms. But its okay, you probably wouldnt get to read this blog anyway. I was really hurt. I read the gifts and the blog we once had. Are you really the kar mun that loved me?
Maybe its like a married couple kinda thing. When you get together for too long the feeling just gets diluted. and u are leaving towards another phase of ur life while I am still training in army. All thse should play some part in our break up.
2years 2 months. The most serious love of my life for the longest time. I hope i can get over u soon.
Maybe I cannot. But I have to right. :( There are nothing much that I can do. Thats why i started this blog. I will pen down whatever miserable feelings that I will feel after you leave. when i managed to leave this blog, it meant that I have gotten over you totally. I wonder how long will i take to recover...
Everytime during tough times, your smiley and cute face will come to my mind and i told myself to push on. I know you had fun during ur camp, thats what u told ur friends, but the only regret is me smsing youand pestering you. It will not allow you to enjoy urself thoroughly. its kind of hurting because in the past you depended on my sms. But its okay, you probably wouldnt get to read this blog anyway. I was really hurt. I read the gifts and the blog we once had. Are you really the kar mun that loved me?
Maybe its like a married couple kinda thing. When you get together for too long the feeling just gets diluted. and u are leaving towards another phase of ur life while I am still training in army. All thse should play some part in our break up.
2years 2 months. The most serious love of my life for the longest time. I hope i can get over u soon.
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