Sometimes u are really cruel.

I care so much about you, but sometimes u just disappoint me so much... I will not fight with u. This is our last days together. I will not fight. WILL NOT FIGHT BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE YOU

shit man.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR You are so irritating. keep ignoring my smses. why do I still love you so much regardless of this? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

but seriously.

over the past few days, when I was shooting, I was not being focussed at all! I kept thinking about us. About the times we spent together and how it is really not possible to spend the equal amount of time together from now on... It seems like an impossible feat for us to ever get together again. which is QUITE AND DEFINITELY SADDENING NEWS TO ME. we can really only get together if we truly love each other. Which i believe you dont love me as much as before anymore. I really feel like letting go, but I cannot. wth is wrong with me. Why is it so hard? WHY!!!!!

sigh. i still love u. :(

i passed you a gift.

I am booking in again, passed my present for u to mari. Hope you will like ittt... :(

you finally replied

Thank goodness you are alright. Although ur reply meant that we might not get to meet... but knowing that you are alright make me feel so much better....

wtf is wrong with meee!!!!

It is 8 am in the morning. Oh man, I am feeling so so so so damn worried now. I cant get through the phone to you and you are not replying... FREAK. Why am I torturing myself SO MUCH. I feel so horrible. you are probably okay. I wanna deliver breakfast to you but I am so scared you are not in, what can i do what can i do. I did a card for you, but will I be able to pass it to you? WHY AM I TORTURING MYSELF! WHY DO I CARE SO MUCH FOR?

More more!

we had so so so so so much memories i cannot believe that we forgot all that when we talk about breaking up.....

The feeling that we once had... can it be rekindled?

The making of...

I am starting on the video for your birthday! :) Look what I found! omg. when did we take this :)

I did so many stupid things for you.

Omg, as I look back, I realised that I did a lot of dumbass things for you. It seemed so ridiculous to me now that I feel really dumb thinking it was romantic to you. I am so so so so retarded. I cant believe it!

No wonder you choose to leave.. haha


Look at this. our 50th day video. WTF i am so embarrased of myself :(

I LOVE YOU, VICTOR! <3 <--- this was your reply :( hahahha shit.

Its so hard sometimes

Sometimes, I really wish that I can forget you totally, but it is really so so so hard sometimes. I should move on with my life. I am glad I am not disturbing you though I am under so much pain. At least you are leading ur life well and okay. At least you are happy studying without me giving you any disturbance or pressure in any way... But why must love be so painful for one side. Sigh I wish things were like the past, I wish I know what is happening in your life. BUT WHY DO I LOVE U SO MUCH.

ARGHHHH !_@)(#@#*